because my brother has done nothing but be a complete asshole to me today. He keeps yelling at me for “being stupid” and he’s ruining my weekend. Everything is starting to piss me off now and I just want to break a window because he’s being a total jackass. Apparently to him, I’m a good-for-nothing, useless, annoying, dumb, stupid sister. Okay thanks for being such a bitch to me and my birthday is tomorrow so I know it’s going to be so fucking great. My brother is such an asshole to me, it’s pissing me off to no extent because he’s so mean and rude and just he’s blaming everything on me.
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I feel like complete crap right now. I haven’t cut in almost 2 months now and that’s really good for me and I am just so proud of myself but I can’t help but cry. I feel like shit and my heart just hurts so badly. Everything is stressing me out and my future plans are starting to intimidate me. I just don’t think I can stay happy anymore, even if I’ve been doing so for almost 2 months.
I feel like a big piece of shit and I just don’t know what to do. I want to cut so badly, no one has any idea. I want to cut. I want to die. I want to die. I want to cut. I want to hurt myself so badly that no one can patch me up. I want people to beat me up and give me so many bruises and just break all my bones and render me useless. I want people to give me their harshest opinions about me and just break me down. I want to be ridiculed and talked shit at. I want to be demoralized and to have someone just emotionally handicap me.
I want to be broken emotionally and physically.
1 note / reblogI used to be so into K-pop, J-pop and J-rock but now everything I listen to is just not Asian at all and I kind of like it. Back when I still loved J-pop/rock, I was such a nerd. And then when I got to my K-pop stage, I was so obsessed my grades suffered. But now I’m into such awesome artists/bands and everything is perfect :~)
- Lana Del Rey
- You Me At Six
- Panic! at the Disco
- Enter Shikari
- Adele
- Kelly Clarkson
- Linkin Park
- Ingrid Michaelson
- The Fray
Such a perfect list ♥.
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2 notes / reblogover a completely stupid and utterly insignificant reason. It’s times like this that I look down at my scar-filled arms and think “why do I let shit get to me so easily?”. I’m so stupid. I hate myself so much. Why am I so childish. Why do I always have to be like this. I hate myself. I hate…
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I haven’t cut for 3 weeks now, and that is a very long time to me. I’ve been extremely happy lately; I’ve been on a good path but right now, it feels like it’s all going down the drain. My favorite teacher came up to me at the beginning of the week (she’s like a 2nd mom to me) and she told me that…
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